No Poo: Tweaking

Today’s Photos.  A few hours after a BS/ACV wash.

There is a small section that seems more oily than the rest, I’m thinking I may have just accidentally passed over that section, as it’s not an issue I’ve ever had so far.  We will see I guess! I’m not sure if it counts as “cheating”  but if I head out for any special reason this weekend I will likely just apply a little setting powder to the top later so that it doesn’t look so out-of-place (it’s a trick I learned from having bangs that would get stringy/oily faster than the rest of my hair)

Oh, and that Olive Oil nonsense, took 3 more washes to get it out.  Clearly I must have been doing something wrong, haha!

I switched to Apple Cider Vinegar a little sooner than I wanted to.  It seems fairly common for some people to have to tweak their process a bit, but I wanted to give it closer to 3 weeks before I made any big changes.  Unfortunately I ran out of white vinegar, and I just decided that it would be better if I just bought a giant jug of ACV rather than buying more white and having to buy more sooner.  I’m weird like that, disliking multiple shopping trips and things of that nature.

I initially wanted to wait until I was sure  my adjustment period was over, even though it’s not been very bad for me, so that I better knew what effects were being caused by my changes, rather than my hair still adjusting.

My hair wasn’t dry before I started, and hasn’t really been all that dry after I started, it’s definitely a tad more dry now.

I think that means I need to start dialing back on the Baking Soda.   I’ll give it a try next time and see what happens.  I have also been sticking to an every other day washing since my post about the greasy 3rd day, but I think it’s time to see what happens over a longer period of time again.

The heavy feelings is gone though, and I’m pretty sure now that it’s just gone, and not that I just got used to it. More reading also has me thinking that the “heaviness” I have been using to describe my hair might have actually been what other people are calling waxy.  Not sure really. My hair has never been in a state that I would describe as waxy, but it could just be that it was waxy and I just didn’t know that’s what was going on.

More reading, yes! I suspect that I will keep reading about No Poo, BS/ACV, and all sorts of various methods, various do’s and dont’s, researching, testing, etc.

Another update in a few days pre BS/ACV wash!

Boscia Luminizing Black Mask

So in my first No Poo post I mentioned mostly I’m giving it a go to save a buck.

Boscia is my reason for wanting to save a buck. (Hey, I never claimed I was all crunchy) I have never found anything that works as well for me as Boscia does.  From cheap to expensive, from natural to strong chemicals.  This is perfect for me. But pricey.  I’ve tried a lot of things, from before I found Boscia, to when I get fed up with the prices and buy something less expensive, to when I’m in a financial pinch and flat-out can’t afford it.

You should have a look at it your self if you’re curious.  Always preservative free, lots of natural. I sort of consider it the best of both worlds.

Recently I used the last of my Luminizing Black Mask  and figured while I was at it I could formulate a small blog about it.

This specific product has no parabens, sulfates, synthetic fragrances/dyes, petrochemicals, phthalates, GMOs, or Triclosan.

It’s a mask, but you peel it off when you’re done!

I like to think of it as a pore strip for my entire face, that’s certainly how it feels!  The peeling is not exactly painless, it comes in varying degrees of what you experience if you’ve ever used a pore strip.  Boscia is generally suitable for sensitive skin, however if your skin is sensitive to peeling like this or is easily irritated by physical abrasion, this might not be something you want to try. I notice smoother skin, swelling and redness of breakouts is reduced.

I can’t wait to try their white mask! Next week sometime I’ll be picking up Boscia’s BB cream for the first time and I plan to blog about that as well, due to the fact that I read a lot of mixed reviews about it.

Other Boscia products I currently use are:

  • Detoxifying Black Cleanser
  • Willow Bark Break out Treatment
  • Clear Complexion Treatment

I don’t use their tonics because last I checked they still use sprays, and I’m not a fan of spraying myself in the face!   I would Love Love LOVE to get my hands on some Antioxidant Recovery Treatment C, but it’s one of their more expensive items, and every time I can afford it, they’re sold out/on back order.  I’m hoping the next time I’m alerted that it’s come into stock I’m able to afford to buy it straight away!

Giving up my pricey hair regimen to afford my pricey skin regimen? Worth it!  But believe me, if I ever found something less expensive that worked just as well for me, I’d switch in a heartbeat.

Please  also note, I’ve said “for me” a number of times in this post.  That’s because what works for me may not work for you.  What works for other people may not work for you.  On the flip side, just because some people say something doesn’t work at all, doesn’t mean that it won’t work for you.   If you have skin problems or concerns, there’s a lot of trial and error to be had.  I couldn’t say if this will be as equally awesome for you as it is for me, but if you try it and it doesn’t work out so well that doesn’t mean that I, or anyone else, is lying about personal experiences.

This end note is brought on by recently reading reviews on random things where several people gave glowing recommendations, and then one person who had a poor experience says something like “How much did you pay these people to write such nice  things?”  When it comes to skin care and beauty items, there are some people that it just won’t work well for or even work at all, sometimes something might even make your skin worse.   This does not negate the fact that many other people found it to be a great product for themselves.

 

No Poo Update

One day shy of a week.  I’d say that it’s going pretty well.

I had been washing every other day.  Tonight it had been closer to 3 days.

First two photos are of my hair shortly after it’s finished drying (as opposed to a day or more after washing).  The next 3 are from today, just before I washed it again.  I apologize for the inconsistent lighting, as the 3 day photos were taken in my bathroom because I just barely remembered to document the status of my hair before washing again.

Also, this is my first time fiddling with the gallery.  I’m not sure I like it, we’ll see if I change my mind.

For 3 days, it did not seem very far off from I’m used to.  Either the heaviness is easing, or I’m just getting used to it, hard to say!

I have also continued on with some research.  I had all the how’s and some of the why’s . (I will not be citing sources here, I encourage you take anything about my No Poo endeavour as merely an anecdotal experience, and the facts as I currently understand them.  So I also encourage you to do your own research)

So, Why do I need to use vinegar?  Why do some people use apple cider vinegar?  Why is it permissible to use lime or lemon juice?  Why do many sources say that the vinegar is for counteracting the baking soda?

A lot of it has to do with the pH.  On the pH scale most people’s hair is in the middle..ish.  Baking soda is a base, vinegar or lime/lemon juice are acids.  While baking soda will raise the pH, the vinegar will lower it again.  Now I knew all that already except for the bit about my hair having a pH balance, and that balance being fairly important.  Apple cider vinegar is more acidic than white vinegar.  Lime and lemon juice are also more acidic (I believe).  So what I originally thought was largely due to preference, is a little more technical than that.  It probably still has a bit to do with preference, but more so the preference of how it affects the pH of your hair.

There are other reasons to use an acid after baking soda, I’m still a little confused on that topic though, so I will save that for another update.

I’m also experimenting with using olive oil for a moisturizer boost.  My hair is not overly dry from going No Poo, it’s just something I wanted to try out.  I tried it once before I started No Poo, and with shampoo I had no problem getting the oil out of my hair.  With BS/WV….not so much.  I think I will have to wash it again to get it out.  I know that this is something plenty of No Poo veterans do, but it seems I’m missing a step or something.

More No Poo updates to come!

No Poo!

I’ve taken the plunge into No Poo land!  Last night was day 1. Prepare just as meandering a post as usual!

“No Poo” means No shampoo, and (sometimes) None of the poo that’s in shampoo!

Most of my motivation came from not liking the money I have to spend on “good” shampoo/conditioners.  I’m picky about the health and feel of my hair. Store brands just don’t cut it, leaving my hair dull, dry, and feeling rough.  My favorite brands were Kenra and Joico.  Pricey stuff (although not the most expensive I know!)

Here’s the skinny, as I understand it anyway.  Shampoos have detergent in them, detergent that we don’t really need to be putting in our hair.  Why are you supposed to use conditioner? Because the detergents strip away all the oil and good stuff from our hair.  If you have hair longer than an inch or so, and you’ve ever forgotten or skipped the conditioner you’ve probably noticed that your hair turns out pretty dry, and sometimes brittle/crunchy.

This is because many shampoos have sodium lauryl sulfate (SLS), which is mostly used to create that “lather” we’re all used to.  But because of how SLS works, it’s also pretty good at stripping away too much oil.  Oil that your hair needs.  If your hair didn’t need it, they wouldn’t make conditioner to replace what was taken away!

The common immediate reaction to No Poo is “Eww! Gross!”

Not so fast!  For one, anyone who takes a No Poo approach to their hair care regimen has probably put more thought into their hair health and making this decision then you do when you’re deciding which new brand/scent you want to buy.

For two, just because someone is No Poo, doesn’t mean they don’t clean their hair!   For some people, that is the ultimate goal, to not ever wash their hair.  But I don’t think that many people can get there. It takes a long period of adjustment and gross hair to get to that, if you can ever get to that point.  I’ve read about some people who have gone 8+ months and their hair still isn’t out of the ‘icky’ phase.

What I’m doing is not that! I actually used some of that Sulfate Free Shampoo for about a month, in hopes that it might cut down some of the transition time, but more on that later. I also already only washed my hair ever 3-4 days.

The process:

I’m going with a Baking Soda (BS) and White Vinegar (WV) approach.  It’s very simple.

  • You mix 1-2 tablespoons of Baking Soda in 8-16 oz of water (1 teaspoon/1 cup ratio), same with the vinegar.
  • You pour the BS mixture in your hair and work it around.  It won’t lather, nor should it feel gritty.  If it does, add more water, in the future perhaps use less BS.
  • After you rinse, you use the WV mix, rinse again.

Once your hair is dry the vinegar smell goes away.   I may switch to Apple cider vinegar though, just for a nicer smell while I’m doing the washing, ha!

Now there is still a transition period, but with regular BS/Vinegar washing, it shouldn’t last long, A week or two maybe, for some people it’s up to a month.  I think it largely depends on your own oil production.

I’ve heard this is less likely to work if you have hard water.  I have no idea if I have hard water or not, so for now I’m pre-mixing with filtered water.  (And from now on, I will remember that taking ice-cold water from the fridge into the shower with me to dump on my head is not an awesome experience!)

Part of the transition is also working out the build up from previous products, so a clarifying shampoo to jump-start might be helpful, especially if you typically use a lot of products in your hair.

And speaking of products! Another No-No!  BS won’t be able to combat the heavy stuff left behind by most styling products (no fizz, smoothing, etc) However, the consensus seems to be that going No Poo eliminates the need for such things, especially if frizz is a concern.

Some people say “But my hair is TOO oily to not use shampoo!”  Which is highly unlikely.  Shampoo strips the oil out of your hair and scalp, so because there’s not enough, your body makes more.  Supply and demand.  Most people with super oily hair actually have their shampoo to blame, it’s causing the over production.

That’s about all my thoughts for now.  I will be updating about my progress.  I did not think to take any “before” pictures.  But this is 24 hours after the first BS/WV wash. For now I will stick with my usual washing schedule, but may increase frequency of washing if I hit a rough patch in the transition to see if that helps.  My hair feels normal, looks fine, feels clean (not greasy).  It does feel (and behave) like it’s a bit more weighted down than usual.

My hair is shoulder length, wavy/straight and very thick.Image

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…..Bed Bugs!

You are not abandoned my little WP blog!  I’ve been thinking a lot about what to do with it, I need some sort of niche.  I’m not sure I’ve found one yet.

But another cause for absence, we got Bed Bugs!  And it has been a L-O-N-G ordeal.

If you’re in the Navy, Bed Bugs can be a serious issue.  If your S/O goes to work on a ship every day, sleeps on the ship on Duty Days, a ship that goes on deployments, a ship where people who live in a barracks go between there and the ship most days, and you have NEVER gotten bed bugs (BB)….IT’S A FLUKE!!

Seriously, just dumb luck.  Barracks, get constantly infested with BB.  On deployments the sailors see foreign ports in countries where BB are extremely prevalent.  Sometimes it doesn’t get dealt with very well.  My husband has told me once a guy in his berthing said there were BB in his rack, so they reassigned him to a new rack, aaaaaaaaand that was all.  People frequently move into the barracks if they don’t live out in town after they return from deployments, all it takes is ONE BB.  The Barracks here in SD have frequent out breaks.  Whole floor outbreaks…multi-floor out breaks!

I won’t even discuss if you’ve ever stayed in a hotel and not brought home bed bugs. It doesn’t matter how nice of a place you stayed in, they can be anywhere.

It also doesn’t matter how clean you are (or aren’t) or how neat you keep your home (or don’t.)  BB are parasites, they are blood suckers.  Are you a warm body? Do you breathe?  That’s all they care about.

So it’s important TO NOT BE EMBARRASSED!!!

The first time I saw one a few months ago, I Knew exactly what it was, which is very important. Do you know what a BB looks like?  What signs they leave behind?  These are important things to know.  You probably don’t want to purposely look up photos of BB and their eggs and etc.  But think of it this way, what if you saw one, right now you saw a bug, and you didn’t know what it was?

How much do you know about BB? If you thought you had them what would you do? Start trashing your stuff? Throwing it away? Would you start sleeping somewhere else?  If you don’t know what they look like, or what the signs are, you may not notice until it’s a worse infestation.  If you don’t know what to do, you could do the completely wrong things.  You could do things that cause the infestation to spread, or unnecessarily get rid of expensive items (mattresses, bed frames, couches, etc)

So I’m going to tell you some MYTHS about BB, tell you where you can go to see what they look like (I won’t post images my self, mostly to encourage you to do your own research! but mostly because I don’t want to have to look at it while writing this whole post and have it giving me the creepy crawlies) and anything else you might need to know about BB.

One more thing…If you’re in the military, this is the kind of thing you can get financial assistance for! Don’t be worried if you can’t afford an expensive treatment, BB are a serious issue, and if you really need help to afford to pay for a PCO, there is help to be found!  For the Navy (and I’ll assume Marines too) there’s Navy-Marine Corps Relief Society, and I know there’s a similar thing for other branches.

Some Myths:

Having BB means you’re gross.

  • As previously stated, BB are blood suckers. So having them doesn’t indicate that you or your home is unkempt and/or unclean.

BB will only be in your bed.

  • Despite their name, you could find them anywhere, your bed, couches, even your car.
  • They also may not be inside your bed, or anything else.  They could simply hide in the seams around the edge, or in the framework of the box spring. Basically any crevice where it seems like they’ll be mostly undisturbed, they have even been known to be up in the popcorn ceilings.

If you get rid of your bed (or anything else) it will get rid of the problem

  • They might only be in your bed, or your bed frame, or whatever.  But they might not. Plus when moving this stuff to the trash, you may disturb them and leave some behind, causing them to spread elsewhere. Not to mention mattresses, bed frames, etc are expensive. It would be safer to shell out that dough to an experienced PCO (Pest Control Operator) to appropriately treat your home to eradicate the infestation.

BB only come out at night.

  • They are NOT nocturnal. It’s a common misconception.  They can seem to be so, because they most commonly harbor around their hosts place of sleep, and most people sleep at night.  But they are opportunists.  They were in my couch and I most often did not see them late at night. Basically where  ever they set up shop, and whatever time it is that you usually park yourself there, is when they’ll come out.
If they’re getting me in my bed, I can just go sleep somewhere else.
  • Yes and no, if anxiety or the bites are preventing you from getting a good nights sleep, a brief respite is not a bad idea. Sleep deprivation does no one any good. But the BB will follow you. They can sense body heat and CO2 (what we exhale) and when they need a meal, they will go looking. So if you think you can relocate until they all die, that will definitely not work. They also can go dormant for up to 18 months before they’ll die from starvation.

Fogging/Bombing my home will get rid of them.

  • I have come to find that fogging/bombing is a bad idea. These things do not release a gas, what they do is more like a rain effect. Remember when I said they could be hiding under the box spring or in any crevice? This means that a chemical raining down from above is not likely to affect them. What’s worse, is that if it does get near to them, they are very evasive and good at surviving. The will just go deeper into hiding and harder to get rid of.
These are not the only myths and common misconceptions, but it’s a good place to start.

And now I will direct you to possibly the best website I have ever run across when it comes to BB. I enjoy it for the many FAQs, as well as the forum which is QUITE active!  There are MANY people dealing with BB everyday.  And the best way to combat the issue is KNOWLEDGE.  Know their habits, what they look like, what they leave behind, and how to protect you, your family, and your home from ever even getting an infestation, and what to do even if you do end up with one.

http://bedbugger.com/faqs/

On this site is the answer to many questions.  What should you do to prevent bringing BB home? What do BB look like? You live in an apartment, what should you do? What kind of treatments are available? Which one is better? What are some good PCO companies? So on and so forth.

If you are in the Southern CA area, you might like to know that the company I used to treat my infestation was Isotech.  You may have seen their TV show Verminators. (Although I’d never heard of it until after I found their website looking for a company that uses dogs to scent BB)  They are very experienced in dealing with BB (often the success of a treatment matters more on the experience of the PCO and how well they know what they’re doing rather than what kind of chemicals or methods are used) and have specially certified k9’s that are trained to find the scent of live BB and their eggs. That was very important for me, as I kept seeing the BB, but visual inspections didn’t turn up any real evidence. One of their specially trained k9’s confirmed it for us though.  Too soon yet to know if it was successful, but I’m feeling pretty confident!

Will update about this soon!  And I will be doing more things with this blog soon, I promise 🙂

Budgets, Budgeting and Deals.

If you’ve landed here looking for info about Sears Heroes at Home, that post is directly below this one.  Thanks for stopping by!

It’s that time of year, the time of year that I hate.  When people start talking about the military budget for next year and why the raise isn’t good enough.  I’ve seen that the estimate is 1.6%, which I believe is larger than last year, but far below Bush Era 3%+ raises.   It could just  be me…..but it sounds pretty ridiculous to just automatically get a raise every year, on top of all sorts of other raises and benefits, and then complain that it’s not as much as you’d like.

If you can’t get by with the money you make now due to mismanagement, then a small raise isn’t going to help much because you will just mismanage the extra cash right along with the rest.  I speak from personal experience. When we were making almost 1k less a paycheck, we had a lot more loose funds then we do now.  Every single pay period we would go out to dinner and see a movie. (or two!) We bought what we wanted and did what we wanted  and burned gas going anywhere whenever we wanted. We just didn’t have the bills that we have now.  And I’m sure you know the story, young people falling into credit card debt is practically a coming of age ritual.   We paid our bills, and then suddenly interest would shoot up, and even though we were making large monthly payments, with all the fees and raised APR it wasn’t even covering minimum payments.  We tried to be more  thrifty but it took a while to learn. And by the time we did, it was all practically unmanageable.  There’s a lot more to it then that, but I won’t quibble, we dug our own hole and it was never the Navy’s fault for not paying us enough.

If you just think that you need more money because you deserve it, then that’s your opinion, but my opinion is that you need a lesson in humility.  Yes our military does a great thing. But it’s paid volunteer work.  I don’t believe that our great heroes of this country were the kind of people who felt so high and mighty that they felt like they deserved more than they were getting.  I  think the kind of person who goes above and beyond is the kind that would keep on doing their job even their pay was cut instead of raised.  So I think you have a pretty good idea of my opinion of the kind of people who get upset that we’re getting a raise, being given extra money for no real reason, and complain that it isn’t good enough.

I suppose I ought to step down from my soap box and move on with the show!

I strongly recommend budgeting.  Even if your financial situation is fantastic. When I started budgeting several years ago (prior to all the debt), I had a few “holy crap!” moments.  Such as we were spending up to 60 dollars a month on fast food.  My husband buying a soda from the vending machine everyday adds up pretty quick also.  (30+ a month depending on what kind he bought) So I don’t think it ever hurts to see an accurate break down of exactly where all of your money is going even if you’re not living paycheck to paycheck.

There are lots of options on how to accomplish a budget.  When I first started out I used a spread sheet.  First it was the windows program and then I switched Google Docs since you can access those anywhere.  This method only works if you know how, or are willing to learn how to use a spread sheet.  It involves using formulas that will add, subtract, multiply or a ton of other things between rows, columns, individual blocks or whatever you want.  Formulas for a basic budget are pretty simple, but I don’t think I really have the resources currently to try to explain in my little blog what to do.  But using the Google Docs tutorial should probably be a lot of help if you want to go that route.

Since getting a smart phone I’ve been using a budgeting application MoBudget (Windows phone only) It has been PHENOMENAL.  Any smart phone will have apps like this though, some of them will cost money, others won’t. You just need to look at the details, use free trials, and figure out which one has the features you want out of it.  If you have a windows phone, I cannot recommend MoBudget enough!   There are also websites that offer budgeting features and some banks will also have something like a budget with their online banking.  I believe Navy Federal at least at one time could break down your spending and show you where all your money was going.  And most Navy Bases will have budgeting classes. I believe I even once got a budget layout in a file from NMCRS once.  I don’t know about bases for other branches. If you’re with another branch and know whether or not there are similar programs please share the info, every little bit helps!

Once you see where your  money is going, you can start looking for areas where you can cut back or be a little more thrifty.  Everywhere you go, at any point when you spend money, ask them if they have a military discount.  Grocery stores, gas stations and things like that usually won’t.  But hair salons, mom and pop shops, random stores in the mall might.  Every bit helps!  Other stores might have special days where the military get discounts, like Old Navy. (at least they used to, I haven’t shopped ON in a while) If you find out that somewhere you spend money often has a discount, then that is super.   I seem to have found more places in my hometown (non military) area that have discounts more than here in an area where there are always lots of military people around.

If you want to plan a trip to a theme park, a vacation, a concert, whatever. Check with the establishments to see if they have military discounts, or certain times of year where they offer it.  And also check the MWR, I tried to look it up and it seems like the MWR is an all branch thing. Just googling “MWR” and your area will get you what you need, there is no over all website that I can find.  They have discounted tickets and prices for all sorts of things.  Our roommate just got into a rock concert last week for 10 dollars through the MWR! And it was a B-I-G name concert, I’m sure the cheapest tickets were selling for 30+ bucks.  Back on the fourth of July we all went to a water park that was letting Military in free, and family half off. In the past we’ve gone to theme parks for free on special military days.   So be aware of your recreational deals and discounts of the area.

When buying gas or groceries, try to go with stores that have discounts.  Some gas stations have points programs.  And many grocery chains do.  Some even combine with gas stations. I’m sure we’ve all see the gas stations outside of WalMart where you can get gas for 3 cents cheaper if you use a WalMart card.  We don’t shop at the commissary, the commissary is on base, and we don’t live on base or even all that near to base and we only have one car.  So the last thing my husband wants to do is get off of work, come home to pick me up and then turn around go straight back to base, or go to base on a day off. So we shop at other stores, earn cash back and whatnot, coupon when we can.  Perhaps if I could get some collaboration going on, I could make up a more area specific index of discounts, but I hope this has been over all helpful to as many people as possible.

Some other useful things are Groupon, Living Social, Facebook has a “Deals” app thing.

When it comes buying big-ticket items, like a vacuum, washer/dryer, etc, I read this advice somewhere once, one of those advice columns from AOL or something.  The way it was explained, was that if you couldn’t decide between buying a super expensive item, like a Dyson or a more affordable less expensive vacuum, then you can divide the cost up by use. A Dyson can cost in the ballpark of 600 dollars.  Lets put this against generic vacuum that’s 150 dollars.   If you vacuum once a week, then the Dyson costs you 11.54 per use (rounded) for 1 year, and the generic vacuum only 2.88.  Breaking it down into smaller numbers often helps if you’re just trying to decide if its worth the extra money.  Between 600 and 150 is a tough decision, between 11 and 2 doesn’t seem so extreme.    This was entirely paraphrased but if anyone knows where the original article is I’d be more than pleased to cite it 🙂

So there you go!  My thoughts, opinions, ideas, tricks and tips on this topic.  Coming soon, my hobbies, hobbies I hope to start soon and might hopefully start making some money off of (and maybe give you some ideas as well)!

No shame. Just love. WARNING ** EXPLICIT**

No shame. Just love. (some pictures are nude/semi nude. Some pictures are definitely NSFW)

I saw a heads up about this website.  It’s about  acceptance.  Many women (and men) feel insecure about their appearance.  From the website:

“We are here to share who we are. Our strengths and weaknesses. To inspire and teach. To open minds and change views. To show that beauty comes in all shapes, sizes, colors, and genders.”

It’s a mantra of mine to Share and spread the love.

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

Also recently on my radar was this site (equal risk of encountering photos that are NSFW)  http://www.mybodygallery.com/

The point of My Body Gallery is put in your specifications, and then see photos other people have uploaded and say are the same height/weight/size. The general consensus is that we judge ourselves more harshly then others.  And while you might look at your self in the mirror and feel like a big fat cow, when you see someone of comparable build, you don’t typically see them so negatively.

I have struggled with accepting my appearance for years.  Even as a fresh young teenager who was conventionally skinny, I just thought I was fat. I also have Amblyopia, and one side of my face is flatter than the other. On top of my anxieties which made me much more self-conscious and certain that other people were constantly judging me. 

Now as a 23 year old, no longer conventionally skinny (more like, conventionally over weight, lol) My amblyopia is  worse, half of my face is still flatter then other.  I look back to my teenage years just WISHING I could have seen how really good I had it.  If I hadn’t had such self-esteem problems, I probably wouldn’t have gained so much weight.

But now, I love my self! I know I’m beautiful, and attractive.  My features make me unique.  I am focusing on losing weight, but only for health reasons.  I am happy with the way I look.  I’ve embraced it.  I learned to listen to all the people who always told me I was cute, pretty, beautiful, gorgeous.

Unfortunately I don’t have any real tips on how you can learn to love your self. It’s a different journey for everyone. And a while I can support my friends on the journey, it really is a lonely road, because at the end of the day you have to find it inside yourself.

Believe that YOU ARE a wonderfully beautiful person, inside and out!